Well, after waiting for so long on an update of our girls we finally got one.
Unfortunately, it was not what we were wanting to hear.
We will no longer be pursing their adoption because the grandma changed her mind and decided to keep them.
I can truly say that I feel this is best- I think that if there is a way for them to stay with their family they should. The grandmother has every right to change her mind and I am happy that she won't be alone now.
What makes me sad is that we had no idea she was having any doubts- and after waiting on these girls for nearly a year, praying for them and dreaming of them, this comes as a bit of a shock.
I still believe that God is in control...I don't know what He has planned and to be honest we are feeling pretty discouraged right now, but we are going to keep trying until it becomes absolutely clear that it's time to stop.
Some people go through this process and have no problems; others, like us, seem to hit one roadblock after another. I have been encouraged by those families' stories and seeing the beautiful children who are now part of their family is what keeps us going.
If you think of us please keep us in your prayers!
In other news...
I am about a week and a half from my due date. Yes, I am HUGE and no, it is NOT all baby, though I can kinda pretend it is right now since the stomach tends to dwarf all other physical attributes ( and, no, I am NOT going to post pictures to attest to this fact), unfortunately, I will have to face the sad truth all too soon.
Oh well, it is worth it, but I definitely think that it's Jerry's turn next time!
I've gone a week late with my last 3 so I am not planning on anything different this time.
The kids are so excited and it's fun to hear their love for this baby.
Isabella is pretty sure she wants to be there for the birth (we are doing it at home)...I wasn't sure about that so last night I found some birthing clips on youtube to watch with her and gauge her reaction.
I am totally reassured: despite some rather gory scenes and noisy sound affects the minute she saw a baby's head emerging that's all she saw. She oohed and ahhed, laughed and went on and on about how cute it was. She did tell me at one point though not to scream...hmmm, I'm not making any promises!
I never did get my post on our trip to MO up, but I think my eldest son did a pretty good job with his. I am going to post some pictures of a birthday that came back in June...

Isaiah is now 5!! He could hardly wait for it to happen and he's already bugging me about his next one.

He's growing up way too fast in my opinion. The sooner someone invents that squisher machine the happier I will be!

We have been doing school full force for the last 4 weeks now. We are doing a different curriculum this year and it's pretty intensive- the first week I was in despair, but it is going better now. We are trying to get as much done before the baby makes it's debut since it'll be quite crazy around here after that. And on that note, I am had better sign off...
the kids know when their mother is distracted and they do not hesitate to take full advantage of it!