Saturday, May 8, 2010

If you have love one for another


Forgiveness 
is the act of: 

sacrificing
offering up
giving away
releasing
laying down
 surrendering


 our

hurt
shame
bitterness
justification
righteousness
anger
 


of whatever it is that stands between you

and a brother
a sister
a spouse
a child
a friend
an enemy



It is the healing balm for all relationships.

It is the way

to peace.
to love.
to joy.
to healing.

It is letting go and letting God be God

It is an act of faith
of trust
of dying to oneself
of becoming vulnerable. 


Forgiveness opens my eyes to how much God loves me and releases me to love others freely and unconditionally.


A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to love one another. By this all people will know that you are my disciples, if you have love for one another.”
John 13:34-35



Thursday, April 15, 2010

Desert spring

I LOVE this time of year.
Our changes of seasons are pretty subtle in the desert, you have to look closely, but they are there if you're watching.

The temperature has been perfect, tons of sunshine and longer days mean that we've been spending every chance we have outside enjoying it!  Summer is coming quickly and all too soon we will be driven inside by the scorching temperatures.

March was a huge birthday month for us.
Which explains why my jeans are all now too tight.
Peanut butter pie, strawberry  shortcake with buttermilk biscuits, strawberry pizza, oatmeal cake, chocolate cupcakes...my resolve to restart my diet only lasted as long as it took for things to get out of the oven. Again.

First up, Bella turned 5. She had waited for this day for, what seemed to her, FOREVER, but it came much too quickly for her mama!


Notice the spaghetti-monster  peering over her bowl in awe of her smartest and funnest big sister.

Bella loved her new puppy and she even got to spend time with her great friend, Lily.

Lily was visiting from out of state and also turned 5 a couple of weeks before .

Isabella and Lily five years ago.


A couple of days later we celebrated Caleb turning 15.
I. Cannot. Believe. It.
and
WhereDidTimeFly???

Don't tell him that I think it's pretty cool that he loves his little sister so much...you know how much 15 year olds hate to be cool. (Umm, do teenagers even still use the word cool anymore?)

Okay, never mind, go ahead and tell him. And while you're at it, tell him his mom and dad are awfully proud of him and who he is becoming too.


Next up, it was Jerry's turn. Since he wouldn't let me buy him a 3 night golfing trip at a resort in Mexico, we did the next best thing, which was to stay at home surrounded by the many little people who love him most, and who think he is the  awesomest, smartest, handsomest, funniest dad ever! I would agree.




We ended the month with Gabe turning 9.

He's his father's son, no doubt about it.
Gross was the theme of this year's party...we couldn't find a wormy brain cake recipe so we had to settle for wormy cupcakes. Either way, one worm is too many as far as I'm concerned.
But you only turn nine once and the wild dreams and crazy imagination of boyhood fly away so quickly, so a mom's gotta do what a mom's gotta do while she can!


Several weeks ago we drove a couple hours north and spent a day sledding and playing in the snow.
I love snow.
Especially when it's 2 hours away.


Mikayla enjoyed it a lot more than she had last year and she ate it by the handfuls.

(Mikayla '09)

We went hiking recently for the first time since the twins were home. First time with 9 kids and
we haven't gone again since.

It's going to be a much shorter hike next time; after all, you can only carry out so many people before you end up needing to be carried out yourself.
Here's hoping at least some of the birthday cake calories got burnt off in the desert...but I'm taking a wild guess that it wasn't even close to all of them.
A wild guess and the sad fact that my jeans are still too tight.


Friday, March 5, 2010

What will it take?


What will it take for you to open up your heart and say yes instead of just maybe?

What will it take for you overcome your fears and step out in faith?

What will it take for you to stop counting money and start counting lives?

We have time, they don't.
Minutes pass by, weeks, years...how long do they have to wait, when will their suffering end?

It's up to me, it's up to you.
We are now Christ's body; our hands are His, our feet are His.

He healed.
He fed.
He listened.
He went.
He did.

Let's get off of our couches, rub the sleep from our eyes, 
let's look
let's see
let's hear
let's do.

See their suffering,
and reach out your hands...

In you the orphan finds mercy.
Hosea 14:3

Pure and genuine religion in the sight of God the Father means caring for orphans and widows in their distress and refusing to let the world corrupt you.
James 1:27

And anyone who welcomes a little child like this on my behalf is welcoming me.
Matthew 18:5

I tell you the truth, when you did it to one of the least of these my brothers and sisters, you were doing it to me!
Matthew 25:40


Thursday, March 4, 2010

Pieces

Oh, my sweet little boys...

My stash of chocolate is missing 

there are wet toilet- paper balls splattered onto the bathroom window 

the counter is covered with water and the soap dispenser is missing it's lid


 mysterious brown smears on the wall and the garden hose is turned on again


as is the pool light
and the closet light
and the oven light
I follow a trail of broken toys
and sweep up a pile of spilled laundry detergent


all evidence leads undisputedly to you


 You look at me with your big brown eyes, your round baby cheeks, your soft, curly hair

and mommy sighs

and knows
that there is nothing in this world worth
even half 
as
much
as you!

 

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

puppy dog tails

Here she is, freshly bathed, combed, vitamin E carefully applied to her little scab nose...a sweet little girl ready for the day.




 And here she is, a couple of hours later, after a morning filled with big brothers and puppies.

6 months home...

...and see how they've grown!

Judah Biruk started out several inches shorter than Elijah Kidus and has now almost caught up with him. They both weigh exactly the same amount now.


They are fluent in English and speaking in complete sentences and, wow, guess what? All that chattering away to each other in Amharic that sounded so cute and endearing and that we desperately wished we could interpret? Well turns out, now that we CAN understand them, it was mostly whining, teasing, and fibbing...who knew...Ethiopian kids are just like American kids!
In some ways I'm amazed that it's been 6 months already, other ways it seems a lot longer than that.

Adoptive parenting is exhausting.
It is frustrating.
It will drive you crazy.
It is extremely demanding.
It'll make you second guess yourself a thousand times a day.
And you'll never be so happy to see bedtime roll around and finally, finally you'll have a moment of peace and quiet.
Peace and Quiet without a...
"Mom, can I have banana (an apple, a cracker, cereal, an egg)?"
or
"Mom, I'm dooone!" (times 6)
or
"Mom, he hit me"
or
"Mom, I want...and I want and I want and I want..."

Peace and Quiet without...
the bloody murder screaming when one of them trips
or
the constant tattling
or
the whining, oh the whining...


But it's also...
the most amazing , absolutely amazing thing...
to tip toe into their bedroom at night, look down at their little faces
and
realize what a miracle it is, for you and for them
that these 2 little ones, from so far away
cold, scared, hungry, and helpless
are now
here.
And they're yours.
Forever

It takes your breath away every time.
Most days anyway.